Thursday, May 7, 2015

To the person I don’t know.


Hey x,


Let me pick you up from work, let’s go to the gym together.
We shall go a restaurant nearby, eat our favourite food.
It may not be the most fancy of food but at least we are eating something we grown up eating.
Tomorrow, let’s try to get home early and cook ourselves some simple meal!
Or let’s wait till the weekend where we can just bake and eat all those food we bake!

The gym has a place to shower. We don’t have to waste the water at home.
Showered, eaten.
Let’s push ourselves together to get fit. Let’s do gym everyday. If not, at least 3 times a week?

Let’s say we catch a movie tonight if you’re not tired.

Let me give you 3 options:
1) Do you want to go home, lie down on the bed, and we shall just get ourselves filled with ice cream and catch up on our tv series?
2) Do you want go to the shopping mall, walk a little, maybe get something that you wanted to buy, and watch a movie? (we watched this, this and that, so we could watch that one)
3) Let’s just go home, turn on some music and sing.

Well, that movie we can just watch during the weekend, let’s catch up on that tv series.
Let me head over to the supermarket to get some ice cream.

I don’t know where you might work, I don’t know where you will be.
I may have my new car now, I love to drive, so I can fetch you if its in the same area!
Let’s share the car. You can use it. I can use it.
Oh you have your car too? Well, I guess we will just meet there at the mall? Or meet you at home?

Our house. Did we stay here? Or do we have our own separate house? I mean apartments. Well, I’m not really in that position where I have that much money to rent a house, let alone to buy one!
Do you stay near? Do you stay far? If you stay far, do I have to get through the jam to get you? It will be a lot easier if we stay in the same area.

We might be too young to stay together. Maybe in 5 years time. Let’s say its for now, you stay near me, do we get to go to each other’s house to stay over? This week I come your place, next week you come to my place.We will work things out, wouldn't we?


Wait when did we first meet again? Secondary school? Tuition? College? University? Work? (I highly doubt it). It’s great that we have so many things in common. The things we spend hours and hours talking till we sleep. Maybe that’s only for one night. The rest, we try to do things together, we learn, we communicate and we just blend with each other’s life so well.

I can’t believe I have someone like you, x.

How many dates did we have before we got together? Was it too rush? Were you waiting for me to say the words? Am I too lost to not know what to say? All those miscommunication before but yet now, we seem to do alright with communication.

Let’s plan a trip, x. Let’s go here, here and there. Let’s try the food here. Let’s get fat together (Mind you, we gym too okay? So don’t judge). Let’s meet up with these people that we haven’t seen for so long. Let me introduce you to this friend of mine that we’ve known each other years ago. Let’s go visit our parents this weekend. You go to yours and I go to mine. Wait, are we in the same town as well? Let’s drive down, get ready a playlist and let’s do crazy things in the car, laugh, record, sing our lungs out!

x, we do have the same taste, we have the same interest. Wow.
x, we don’t really have the same interest and we don’t really have the same taste. We argue a lot sometimes but that’s alright, I love how we are accepting each other by compromising ourselves to know one another more.

Let’s make sure we finish our work earlier so that we can do things together. Are you working? Are you still studying? Have you done your assignments? Let’s wait until you’re done and then we can do all these things together! Let me come to university and meet you! I bought you some things during lunch time, do remember to eat these okay? Let’s do something in the weekend.

Ah man, you have to finish work late? Well, we’ll skip gym for the days you are busy and let’s make a point to tell each other that we are either late or early so that we can go to the gym together, eat together. Do we spend a lot of time on the phone talking? I’m not really good at messaging. Maybe we can find our own little cute ways of contacting with each other? It keeps me interested to talk to you every single day. We don’t have boring conversations where we try hard to find a topic to talk about. Whenever someone comes out with a topic, we can just talk all night.

Also, when we communicate or if we are together right now, is our communication with each other clouded with words that fills up the space to talk? Or do we really mean it to each other? like I love you, I miss you, or just conventional love talk. How do I know how to communicate with you? I have a little self esteem problem here. Are you there to help me out? Do you understand me? Do I understand you?

Wait are you still in overseas or are you here in KL? Or you’re from a different city? Wow. It’s hard to meet up with you. Shall I come visit during the weekends? Sigh. How I wish we can be in the same place and doing the things that we can actually do together. I love that kind of life. But if that was you, I’ll always look forward to the weekend. So many things we can do together during that time. We can keep it interesting. Let’s make it this way. We won’t be busy for work or for other stuff during that weekend? Let’s spend time together, can we?

Wait am I being to controlling or should I stop? Especially depicting what you should do or shouldn’t do? Well I’m sorry, I should include what YOU should do as well. Clearly, I’m not mature to think that you have your own things to do too.

It’s all about perspective, isn’t it?

Well, if we were to compromise, I might be the one staying really far or you might be the one. Maybe you’re not even working yet and you still could be studying. Maybe you are working but you stay so far from me, I couldn’t reach you. Our timings would be so different then.

Anyway, I can’t do long distance. It’s gives me a hell lot of burden during the week! Well then how am I suppose to be myself if i’m always thinking about you during the weekdays and not focus on my work. Like the side of me is being distracted by you and just not being able to be physically be with you there. I wish I can but well, this situation that we are in, maybe we only be facing this for the next 3 years? Maybe less, maybe more. I’m not so sure about this but do you think we should continue if our circumstances are in this way? Because it could be really difficult, I wish it is much better than this.

In the end, we’re stuck in our own circumstances. I can wait, well, as long as we are able to be fully be together after those years being apart. I will wait.

To the person I don’t know.

There are many things that we can just speculate. There are many things that we can do together. So many things that we can experience together. But you can’t make the decision, what to do, where, when or how to do until you meet that somebody. I wish I have that somebody as close to me as possible and having that same interest, same compromise. It will be great but we can only have that ideal person that we want to meet in our heads, the person we might meet someday could be totally different and yet perfect at the same time.

People come to our lives in so many different and unexpected ways like how I have a deja-vu today which already told me where I was going to work, the things that I was doing and it was so extraordinary.When I snap back to think, I may have yet known where I was going.

I may have a dream before about you, x, but i’m not sure who will be you. God is centre of it all to know what is coming and what is His plans. I only live the life that He fulfills.

Till the day we meet, x.

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